I It was super scary for me. I always said no because I truly wasn’t interested in them as a ship at the time. Slowly, I stopped talking about ships in general and then I concentrated in one in particular, and things went to hell. I have always been a Kylo/Ben fan and people was always judging me, even suggesting I should change my blog and URL, and making fun of my english (i’m not american), but I got to make a few friends. But now… As we got closer to TLJ, I became certain Rey and Kylo +
were going to become a thing, I was just sure. I realized I wasn’t against that and that I was truly fine with it, because everything I saw of TLJ was just SO. GOOD. and every time I entered my blog again, I saw on my dash more and more hate towards the movie, Rain Johnson and Lucasfilm in general. My friends that I’ve known for so long scare me so much, and I know them so well I know the second I make public in my blog that I now support this ship, they will tear me down like they had done +
every person that doesn’t agree with them. It scares me so much to lose my friends more than to lose my “place” as a popular SW blog, and I also fear rejecting on this fandom because my blog’s name has been linked to antis for a while, even when I was never an anti but I’m friends… or was friends, with some of them. I’m not sure if I should just leave tumblr or create another blog and start fresh, or what the hell to do. What advice do you give me?
Wow this is a packed ask, but so SO important – I can’t give you the right answer, but I’ll tell you how I might approach the situation..thank you for asking me.
I think my general response would be that any friend who would tear you apart for beginning to ship something is just…not a very good friend? I know that’s not a simple response, or easy to hear, but I feel like life is just far too short to surround ourselves with people who would do that?
I have friends who don’t get shipping, but they don’t…tear me down or make me feel bad about it.
Fandom friends are tricky, and I think especially so when you’re fandom is involved in being ‘anti’ something – even though you weren’t, it was tied to you and your friends. The moment you dissent from the crowd is the moment the boat rocks and it’s hard to get through it.
I’m very sorry that liking something like this causes such fear in you, that really doesn’t sound like a healthy fandom experience to me. I really feel like if I were you, I would do some soul searching and ask:
Am I willing to lead a ‘double life’ with my friends by not saying anything, making another blog to hide my reylo enjoyment, and pretending no one knows?
I’ll say this – I created this very blog account the moment I walked out of TFA. Why did I do that? Because I wanted a separate account to just completely devote to the fangirling I was about to do. I wanted to follow everyone and everything and dive into it. And why didn’t I do it on my personal blog? Many reasons, but mostly… I knew what I was getting into – people weren’t going to like Reylo, there was going to be issues. But I wanted to be one of those accounts that could act as a gathering place for Reylo fans, as Ohtze puts it I’m a ‘reylo aesthetic’ blog (so true). And I wanted to do that without worrying about the judgment from other fandom folllowers or even RL friends. I think that stuff is mostly moot though, because my friends all know by now that I’m full blast Reylo – and that’s fine with them. I just keep all my fangirling here because otherwise my personal accounts (Twitter/tumblr) would just basically be a reylo one lol THAT’S SO SPAMMY.
I think you could go that route, and eventually if your friends are REALLY your friends and good/decent people…they’ll still be there. And hey you could even make new reylo-flavored friends! =)
But I think from what you’re saying…your followers/popularity are from a bit of a bad/negative place somewhat? Like no one should have the audacity to tell you to change your url or whatever…that’s your blog?? You can do what you want with it.
And as to the reylo fandom rejection…I think if you’re going to convert your blog to something that’s friendly/open to Reylo, the only thing you should do is just participate positively in the fandom. I’m sure there will be some people in this fandom who might not like it or be really wary, but as long as you’re authentic and love the ship then you’ll find your place soon enough in the fandom.
Also, I know you’re not an anti, but I feel you might find this post useful. It was an interesting insight.
I would totally never say you should leave tumblr. At worst I would suggest a sideblog or separate account like I did, but again you’d be ‘living’ a double life so could you really still be good friends with them like that? Watching them tear down people you agree with? =
It’s up to you on your path, but I think…if you wanted to be direct about it, make a post explaining everything and lay it out there, then convert your blog to whatever youw ant it to be. Start posting stuff you want, etc.
But if you wanted to be indirect, then maybe a sideblog and just tell your friends and watch the chips fall where they may? It’s such a tricky situation, but I don’t think the friends are worth all the trouble – but I’m not YOU, I can’t make that call because I don’t have all the facts.
I’ll just say that, from one Reylo to another, you’d be welcome here on whatever blog you choose.